The Bible says that God directs our steps and knows just how many hairs are on our heads, so it is hard for me to imagine Him leaving things to chance.
My son, Jonathan, entered a drawing for a professional photo shoot a couple of years ago and won. Funny thing, Jonathan was always entering contests and seemed to have a knack for winning. He won a beautiful flat big-screen TV from a drawing also before that.
The photo shoot was taken in Spring of 2011.
Just months later, on September 24, 2011, Jonathan was killed in a motorcycle accident at the age of 27.
There were countless shots taken at that photo shoot that accentuate Jonathan’s funny, silly, quirky and serious personality so much that looking at them is almost like having him around for just a little bit. The picture above is one of the pictures taken. I didn’t actually see this photo till after his death. It grabbed my heart as the photo shows him walking away in his favorite jacket which happens to be the jacket he died in. To me, in this photo he is saying:
“I gotta go now, but I will see you all later.”
Months after his death I was going over some pictures taken when my husband, Deran, and I attended Jonathan’s police academy graduation early 2007. Deran held the camera and was instructing me to stand next to Jonathan for a photo; and unintentionally pressed the record video button. This video shows Jonathan’s nutty personality.
The video is only a few seconds long, but the endearing thing for me is the face and gesture Jonathan makes at the end. I interpret that look as: ” Till I see you again!”
(Sorry, but I don’t know how to put video in post, I did try)
I specifically remember almost deleting this video when I first saw it years ago, but thought I should save it for another time. Thank God I didn’t delete it then as it has become priceless to me. I am very grateful to have a close up of my son, even if it is just a few seconds, because for those very seconds I have him in my life again.
Are the facts that he won the photo shoot and that the “accidental” video was taken (and that I almost deleted it but didn’t) mere coincidences? I don’t believe so! I believe these were providential gifts for those of us remaining behind as God knew He would be taking Jonathan with Him. These have been a huge blessing to me.
Today is the second year anniversary of my son’s heavenly homecoming. The experts say the loss of a loved one, especially a child is always harder the second year. I can say this is true.
I have no doubt I will see Jonathan again. We will embrace in the sweet joy and love of heaven in the presense of the King of kings.
The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way. Psalm 37:23
There are many devices in a man’s heart; nevertheless the counsel of the Lord, that shall stand. Proverbs 19:21
A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps. Proverbs 16:9