August 6, 2013 · 12:46 am

“I Just Love Them,” He said.

I sat on the couch with my legs pulled up to my chest much like a child would sit.  God was sitting next to me, with his arm around my right shoulder.  My other shoulder was tucked in the crook under his arm.  My head rested on his chest.

We sat like that together for a very long time.  I had the reasoning of an adult, but felt completely protected and cherished, as a child should feel in the arms of a loving daddy.

I wanted to stay there forever and feared breaking the moment, but I just had to ask.

“God, how can You stand it?  All the rejection, from people all around the world?”

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“Everyone doesn’t reject Me,” He said, “you didn’t.”

“But, there have been so many people throughout time.  Millions and millions!” Continue reading →

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August 5, 2013 · 6:17 pm

Give me Jesus

imageIn the morning, when I rise

In the morning, when I rise

In the morning, when I rise

Give  me Jesus Continue reading →

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August 2, 2013 · 9:29 pm

He Never Promised Us A Rose Garden

I have been a prodigal.  Saved at the age of 19, but without further mentoring or Bible studies, I tried to be a follower of Christ on my own.

I continued recklessly living my life, making poor choices as I had before.  On a rebound from a hurtful breakup, I became pregnant at 22.  The responsibility of a baby, straightened my life, but I had a ways to go.

I did not want my daughter to grow up like me, never knowing what her father looked like, so I worked at keeping a relationship with her father. Apparently, I worked too hard, I became pregnant again when she was eight months old.

We got married, but deep in my heart I knew it was a mistake. I had the naïve notion everything would work out once he saw what a good wife I could be.  Immediately after our marriage, my gut feelings were confirmed.  I made a horrible mistake. Continue reading →

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July 30, 2013 · 2:27 pm

Celestial Comfort For The Broken Hearted

Though I can honestly say I rarely run out of a topics to write about, I was not sure what to write about today. I looked at my list and this story stood out.

As I have mentioned before, my life has bounced from one tragedy to another since childhood, to the point at times all I had left to hang on to has been my faith in the living God.  And that, by the skin of my teeth.

What I am about to share is an odd story, perhaps some will even doubt my sanity, but as God is my witness, it is as real as I am sitting before my keyboard today.

After all, isn’t our God the God of the impossible, the unexplainable?

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July 29, 2013 · 9:24 pm

Comfort in Connection

These are such wonderfully simple ways of letting others know they are important. A little encouragement goes a long way in life. I remember a point in my life when I was at my lowest. My feelings of alianation were greatly intensified by lack of personal connection and by the fact that days went by without a call or a kind word.

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July 27, 2013 · 9:43 am

Victimhood as a Choice

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The advantage of being a victim of life’s circumstances is that you are not at fault and thus can blame others, including God, for your problems and failures.

I am not talking about  fault as in causation; obviously, crime victims or accident victims harmed by the negligence of another did not cause what happened to them, but neither do victims of disease or abuse.  I am talking about choices in how to react to what happened.

I am talking about making excuses rather than making efforts to overcome even things that are not your fault.

I am talking about the dangers of self pity.

For example, if only Archie Manning was my father, I would be an NFL quarterback like Peyton and Eli, but as it is, I did not have a chance.  All of us whose fathers are not Archie Manning have a great excuse.  Let us blame our…

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July 26, 2013 · 4:00 pm

I Gotta Mow Again

I decided to do something fun and dedicate this song I wrote to the tune of “On The Road Again” by Willie Nelson, to my husband.

Deran is a good guy, and though he really hates yard work, he gets out there and does it.  He and I, both being firstborns and mighty stubborn-to-boot, butt-heads periodically, but I am thankful God placed him in my life.  We have had a rocky road to hoe, but after almost nine years, I am blessed to say that Deran is now the husband I thought he would be when I married him.

I also thank God for His grace and mercy on our marriage.

Well, here is the song.  Enjoy Deran! Continue reading →

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July 25, 2013 · 1:20 am

Things To Remember About Chronic Pain Sufferers

Chronic pain is the pits! I say this because for over thirty years I have lived with it.

I have back pain from an on the job injury, and neck pain from too many rear-ender whiplashes. The neck injury causes my neck to sometimes feel like I have a vice-grip on it for hours on end or like I have an icepick stuck into my skull near the atlas. I get frequent headaches and at times debilitating migraines that not only rob my days, but take me at least one day to recover from afterwards.

Eight years ago, due to unfortunate circumstances, the back pain became much worse. Since then, my life has been measured, as chronic pain dictates my days.

For example: I can only stand for a very short period of time. Just the act of prolonged standing causes my back to throb. Though walking actually soothes my back.

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July 23, 2013 · 1:32 pm

A Child’s Carefree Innocence – A prayer

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TWINKLE, TWINKLE LITTLE STAR*

Give me the eyes of a child, Oh Lord

Fill my inner being with wonder and amazement

Restore this wounded and broken spirit

Replenish my soul to the time of my birth Continue reading →

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July 20, 2013 · 7:24 pm

The Leftovers

Do you remember those brutal days in school when the team captains took turns picking players for their teams?

If you were a team captain, or one of the first four kids to be picked, then never mind.  On second thought, you may want to read on to understand the rejection the rest of us felt.

But if you were one of the kids picked last, you know, the ones the team captains really don’t want to be stuck with; then my condolences.

Read on. Continue reading →

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