Monthly Archives: July 2013

Is That A Megaphone I Hear?

In my post yesterday, Why, Oh Why So Much Suffering, I wrote about the pain of suffering in our imperfect world.

I don’t think I will have too many disagree with me when I say,

“Pain and suffering is the pits!”

But there are good things that come from our suffering.

We tend to be selfish and stubborn, wanting our way.  We think we need no one, we can do life on our own.  We are wired for relationships, especially with God.  God’s desire for a relationship with us often gets put off or ignored.

In The Problem of Pain, C.S. Lewis said, “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains. It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.” Continue reading


Filed under Awed by His Love and Grace, Inner Sruggles and Heartache, Life Lessons, Life with Chronic Pain, Seeds of Inspirations

Why, Oh Why All The Suffering?

I banged on the locked door screaming in horror, begging my mom to let me back in.  My grandmother pleaded with her to open it. The neighborhood kids laughed and shrieked,

”Look! She’s naked!”

I tried to hide behind my grandmother.  My mom opened the door, but blocked the entrance.

“Oh, no, you stand out where everyone could see you.”  I rarely disobeyed her, this time I didn’t move.

“Don’t you dare hide.  Stand out here or I will give you an even bigger beating!”

“She is just a child.  Don’t do this.  Let her back in the house,” my grandmother interceded.

“No!  She needs to feel the shame I felt today when that black b***h humiliated me!  How does it feel to be ashamed?  Maybe you won’t embarrass me anymore!” Continue reading


Filed under A Broken Childhood, Child Abuse and Neglect, In a Kids World, Inner Sruggles and Heartache, Life Lessons, Life with Chronic Pain

Weeds In The Greenhouse

I have a hoop greenhouse.  It was just set up this year so I am learning a thing or two about greenhouses.  One thing I didn’t know is that if one is not careful, the warmth intended to strengthen and nourish the plants can end up overwhelming and harming them.  There must be a balance between the light, the warmth and water and nourishment.

I figured having tomatoes, beets, squashes, zucchinis, bell peppers, onions and other assorted vegies in a protected environment like the greenhouse meant my plants would be protected from the elements like frost and cold.  I thought I would not have to worry about pesky bugs, well not as many anyway. However, if the bees cannot get in to the greenhouse, there will be no pollination and the plants will be fruitless.

I was sure weeds would be a thing of the past.  But not so!  There are weeds in the garden beds, and in the walking path between the beds.

Some of the weeds were blown in as seeds by the wind. Continue reading


Filed under Awed by His Love and Grace, Everydayliving, Inner Sruggles and Heartache, Life Lessons, Seeds of Inspirations

I Can Make A Big Mess All By Myself

Since the beginning of mankind, people have had a tendency to blame others. In Genesis 3:11-13, God confronts Adam and Eve after they eat of the forbidden fruit.

God said, “Have you eaten of the tree, whereof I commanded you that you should not eat?”

Adam said, “The woman You gave me, she gave me of the tree, and I did eat.”

The LORD God said to the woman, “What is this that you have done?”

Eve said, “The serpent beguiled me, and I did eat…”

Adam blames Eve, indirectly blaming God, “the woman You gave me.” Eve blames the serpent. There you have it. When it comes to humanity, as Solomon said in Ecclesiastics 1:9: “What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.”

Continue reading


Filed under Awed by His Love and Grace, Gottalaugh, Inner Sruggles and Heartache, Life Lessons, Loss of a Child, Seeds of Inspirations

Happy 237th Birthday America!


Oh beautiful America!

America, America, GOD shed His grace on thee, Continue reading


Filed under Everythingelse

When The Writing Bug Bites

Thank Heavens for the invention of the shower.  Soothing water drops massage and alleviate us. Our bodies relax, along with body oils and dirt, stress seems to wash off.

But, there is something else a shower can be for a writer— inspirational magic.  The cobwebs clear up. I have gained insight, clarification, ideas, and mentally solved problems while in the shower. I can’t say how many home improvement projects have been conceived then, to my husband’s chagrin.

What is it about a shower that so inspires us? They say it is the negative ions that fill the air once we turn on a shower or go near a waterfall or go to the beach, that give us that sense of clear thinking and happiness. I would love to sit by the ocean or waterfall, pen and pad or laptop in hand. According to WebMD, negative ions are like vitamins in the air that positively affect our brains.* Continue reading


Filed under Author's B-Log, Writing and Author Stuff

A Matter Of Integrity

imageI walked into a room full of people at the department of motor vehicles last Thursday.  My first instinct was to turn around and walk out, but alas, it was imperative I renewed my driver’s license.  I pulled out a #2 ticket from the Take-A-Number dispenser on the wall, and looked for the “now-serving” display, but couldn’t find it.  I asked a person sitting next to the ticket dispenser what number we were on.

“Eighty-six,” she said, pointing to the display on the wall behind us, “but it’s moving very, very slow!” Several others shook their heads in mournful agreement.

“A few people have already left!” One man said disgustedly.  It was going to be a long, long wait.  I ran to the car, got a book to read, and came back.  I chose one of the three empty chairs on one side of the room, near the customer service counter. Continue reading


Filed under Everydayliving, Inner Sruggles and Heartache, Life Lessons